The arguement.

There is an argument out there that we all, at some point, ask the inevitable question of "Why me?" I think we also then ask "What did I do," "How do I fix it," and "Where did it go so wrong?" Well I am sorry/not sorry to say this, but you probably are not special, didn't do anything important to fuck up and there probably wasn't a specific point in your life where you can discern that things went all wonky. Life is just fucked up.

There was point in time in which I didn't understand why people used the phrase "the human condition." But then I was depressed. It was a horrible point in my life, the lowest of lows. I wanted to die. I felt this want a lot. I wanted to get really sick and not have to go to school. Hell, I skipped a lot of school. The only things that mattered to me were: keeping my grades up, in case I was going to live, and not hurting my mom. I succeeded at both... for the most part; I didn't  get any C's and my mom never found out how bad it was. But I did not do as well as I could have and I did hurt my mom. I don't recommend this plan of action. I was terribly lonely and it only worsened my state. I do not know how I got out alive but I am very thankful that I did. I learned that "the human condition" means the suffering we all must go through. I learned we don't have to go it alone.

 I also learned that what doesn't kill you doesn't really make you stronger; it shows you how strong you were this whole time. It releases the you  was hiding behind fear and pain.

You are not alone in your suffering and you don't have to feel like it either. Life sucks big and hairy old-man balls but I think we can make it suck less if we work together to kick it's ass.  It's very important to me that everyone understand that they CAN get through it. And that they CAN fight. It IS worth it. I promise. I pinky swear to you that the will to live, the joy of suffering less and the freedom to feel is worth  the fight against depression and eating disorders and overbearing parents and cranky sisters and mean teachers and bad grades and ugly feet. Life is oh so fucking worth it.

I pinky promise you.