I am just going to type 42 shits. Feel free not to read!

1. It seems to me that we are in a never ending cycle. Sometimes we humans think that we have broken the cycle, that we are new people and that this time will be different. I think this is false. I think it is an illusion. I think we are fucked to repeat the same cycle over and over at different speeds and with different scenery. It is a cycle.

2. It seems to me that we can never know people and they can never know us. We are all destined to live alone inside our heads. I want to share my mind. I want to share my insight. I want to share me. I do not want this being to go to waste. I am not a special snowflake but it I am the only me. Parts of me are in other people but I am the only combination of these parts. I do not want to go to waste. I do not want others to go to waste either. I do not want us humans to feel so alone. I want us to be able to know each other. But it seems impossible. Not matter how much we talk, type, write, sing, dance, create and hug no will know us they way we, ourselves, do. Know can see every part of someone else. And for that reason we a stuck.

3. I fucking hate humans. We are selfish and needy. And we are gross. I mean why couldn't we have been built to puke little icecubes like in Doctor Who?!

4. I want to teleport.

5. I fucking love birthdays.

6. I wish I didn't suffer from the human condition. Can I be a cat? Or like... a angel? Or be missing the part of the brain that makes beung human suck so hard?

7. I would die for a stranger. I care a lot about people and the world. But know this: If I give my life for you, YOU BETTER FUCKING USE YOUR NEW LIFE TO THE EXTREME. If I die for you then you had better either do whatever the fuck you want all the time and be happy. Or you must help the world be a better place. I would LOVE it if you did both. That is what I do. It is a hard line to walk but I try. Thank you for using my life to further the awesomeness of the world.

8. If I die and you failed to save me, please do not blame yourself. It's ok. Just like plant a tree or say 10 hail Marys and I'll forgive you. (:

9. I am a morbid bitch. I love it. It makes life so much better.

10. I like that I can manipulate myself. I can make myself not be tired and be happy.

11. I like that I don't need as much sleep as the average Joe. I need 4-7. More or less and I am tired/hyper tired.

12. I like lists

13. I am very bad at comforting people. I will always listen but I will probably not respond in the correct manner. Sorry.

14. I always spell tierd, boerd, and anwser wrong.

15. Did you know that I recently spent $40 on a Unicorn mask? Yeah... I am bad with temptation. IT WAS JUST SO TEMPTING. There are tons of more useful things I could have bought that I "need." like more posters, underwear and t-shirts. UGH. Stupid me Tarun. We are going to blame him. Yeah... TARUN IT IS YOUR FAULT. YOU MADE ME CLICK THAT BUTTON. MADE ME.

16. I feel like I am outside looking in a lot of the time.

17. I am hungry a lot but I am also easily filled. So I geuss it balances out.

18.  Bananas.

19. Why do people even read this blog? It's just me saying random thoughts.

20. Hahaha, I would probably read this blog.

21. I like paradoxes even though they piss my brain off.

22. I wish I had a different brain. I want that works the same as others appear to. I must fake a lot of emotion and I feel to strongly that which I do feel. I normally do not regret being "smart" though. I like feeling superior. And do not give that crap about us all being equal. I believe we should be equal in the eyes of the law but we are all better than someone else at something. It's just a fact.

23. OH MY GOSH DO I HATE IT WHEN PEOPLE TRY TO ARGUE FACTS OR TRY TO MAKE SOMETHING THAT IS NOT A FACT A FACT. "God is real, it's a fact." It is not a fact, it a belief. CAN YOU PROVE GOD IS REAL? Oh you can't? THEN IT IS NOT A FACT. "Dinosaurs are not real, it is a conspiracy." OH YEAH?

24. I love juicy fruit. It is my favorite gum.

25. I am agnostic.

26. My "unmentionable friend" gave me the brilliant idea to make the forum only accessible by people with an MGC email. I love her/him.

27. It bothers me that people suffer.

28. It bothers me that there are so many ways to suffer.

29. I was wonder women for two Halloweens.

30. This year I want be an owl but I run out of time then I will something else that I already own

31. I am a naturally lazy person but that is unacceptable so I make myself not be.

32. I like being prepard.

33. I am not a very good friend in that I say/do the wrong things and am very selfish.

34. I am a good friend in that I care a lot and that I am easily manipulated.

35. I hate language and society rules. I DO WHAT I WANT.

36. I do conform when it comes to school though because that shit is important.

37. I collect hats.

38. I take a lot of pictures

39. I LOVE CLOTHES.

40. One time I followed this kid around Walmart. I rode a Tonka bike, gave him a name and asked him questions. I got asked to stop by the Walmart workers. I did.

41. I love exercising. I can do it for a really long time as long as I have a 2 minute break inbetween everything.

42. Forty Two is my seat in Science because I mean come on... ITS 42.